If you had asked me
a just over a year ago what kind of closet I wanted; I would have told you I
wanted a room I could walk into that were filled with lovely clothes and
accessories. Fast forward to today and the answer could not be more different.
So what changed in a
year? Well I quit my job working in fashion management; I no longer needed to
keep my employers happy with wearing all the latest trends. (For the record this resulted in a near
panic attack every time a new trend emerged in our deliveries that I would have
to a. Afford to buy and b. Convince myself I looked nice in.)
Along with quitting
my job, I broke up with my boyfriend (this caused more emotional stress and not
wanting to get dressed up as all I really wanted to do was throw everything out
and start over) and then I also moved back in with my parents. (Goodbye
independence and personal space)
I removed all
mirrors from my bedroom (my mum has an obsession with antique mirrors; I
figured the ones covering the rest of the rooms in the house were enough of a
reminder to what I looked like).
After a month of
creating the biggest mess in my life, I started to crawl towards getting my
life on track. This last year and a half has been my happiest but toughest. As
I continue to move forward, I find daily challenges and obstacles to overcome.
One of those has
been my personal image, the way I see myself, the way I am perceived by others.
I had a number of closets packed full with beautiful clothes (most of which had
never even been worn). I didn’t really
care that I had not worn them, just that I owned them. If I saw something I liked
I had to own it. I liked having the most clothes out of all my friends. Yet it
didn’t make me happy. It didn’t help me survive; it certainly didn’t help my
financial situation.
I liked knowing that I had almost as many
clothes as the ‘celebrities’ I admired. I liked knowing that whatever the trend
or weather I had something pretty & ready to wear (despite the fact I lived
in the same few outfits).
After breaking free
from my previous life choices, the clothes were one of the things playing on my
mind. I had all these beautiful clothes that were not fulfilling their fashion
destiny. There were people in the world with not even clothes to cover their
backs and I had closets full of things I would neither part with nor wear.
Horrid.
That’s when I
started to clear my closet. If I didn’t love it, it had to go. To charity, to
friends, to sell, wherever it could best be used.
I no longer enjoy
days of shopping, in fact I tend to only shop now if it’s something I need. I
only buy things that I need or will use ALOT. I tend not to buy throwaway
fashion anymore because a. It doesn’t last. B. You end up looking the same as
every other Joe average. C. I was
finally starting to find my own style, which wasn’t trying to keep up with wearing
the latest trends. D. I don’t agree with forcing people to make millions of
items a day for us to buy and throw away as we wish when there are people in
the world that could really benefit from those clothes.
I still have items from high st shops in my
closet and it’s not that I never buy clothes. It’s just that I’m finding my own
style and more cautious over the items I purchase these days.
I love seeing the
clothes my friends and fashion bloggers have been buying and wearing, it’s not
that I don’t like fashion. I love fashion. I just know what I’m looking for in
my own style and what I feel comfortable in.
These posts ‘WHATKGWORE’ are simply that journey put into pictures and words to share with you. Perhaps
you are on your own style adventure or perhaps you like having lots of clothes
and wear them too, feel free to share your fashion/style ideals with me in the
comments below the post.
Alternatively I have
started to sell various items from my closet that I still love but don’t wear
very often. Items that I have worn a few times but not worn again and items I
have worn lots but feel someone else could now benefit from. If you would like
to browse these items you can do so on my Depop page. I don’t accept swaps as I’m
not looking to build my closet anymore but if you have something you feel I may
be interested in I’m always willing to take a look.
Feel free to check
out the rest of my features and my music blog LITTLEBEARWOLF. I’ll be sharing
my adventures here as I live each day and keep focusing on the happy things. I
was down for a long time until I overhauled my life to feel happy with my
choices. I know it will be a while yet until I am where I want to be but I know
that I’m moving towards that and I’m happier now.
LOVE&PEACE
♥ ☮
LITTLEBEARWOLFCOVE
KG
KG
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